Tenacious Twelve..

Well here came LRS and I knew it was going to be a longer run, I wasn't really looking forward to it to tell you the truth. Last week I missed 2 days due to a rest day and a docs appointment that I had to go to for Emily. I knew I wanted to make up for the run day missed but was skeptical about running 3 days in a row. I really don't understand how people can run everyday. I tell you I got major burnout on today's LR. I just wasn't feeling excited but I know why. 6.6 on Friday, 4 yesterday and 12 today. That 12 was hard. I started off thinking a different route was needed, parked my car and headed out a different way. I did this because I didn't want to run a big ass hill that I usually run up and around and back down to my finish. Everything was going smooth, but I will tell you since starting HIIT back up my pace was beginning to really improve. So I'm running along and look at my garmin and see in at a 9:20 pace. I told myself in the car I wanted to do around 9:30-9:35 pace. I knew I needed to slow down since I was ONLY at mile 3.7, I wasn't feeling like I should but I knew that I was going to fatigue if I didn't. So I kept going, wind and freezing cold blowing my face off. Look at Garmin and was at 9:42 I was ok with that. Getting ready to end my run i looked and i was only at mile 7.8 and thought shit I for sure thought I was at almost 10. Sooo damn pissed, I really wanted this run OVER. But I kept pushing myself. I kept saying"just keep running". That's what I kept doing. I didn't care about pace or time I just wanted it to be over. So here I see the big hill, damn I thought, I don't know if I can go up this. But a good song came on and I kept going. Having some trouble with my bungee cord shoe laces, I stopped, well I actually sat down lol and tightened them up more. Felt better but I still had a ways to go since I was at mile 9.1 lol. Oh God help me, give me some strength here. So I ran up the hill, pass the school, into the woods and back at the road, still not close to 12. So I had to do something, so I saw the soft ball fields and ran in there. Actually pretended I play and ran around some bases. As I was passing them it reminded me of back home and a sadness crept over me. I loved watching Emily play softball in Alvord. I loved seeing my friends and visiting, I loved watching her play, I realized how much I missed it. Well I was at 11.5 and I knew how much longer I needed and then I would be done. Soon enough I was done. DONE!!! I simply amazed myself again, looking back at previous 12 milers I was good and my pace stayed good. I achieved what I set my mind out to do. But there was no going home and relaxing. I had to take Emily to get some shoes, go grocery shopping and exchange my calf sleeves. Soo happy I got them cause my calves have been so tight. I love them!! All in all it was a hard run though. It was tenacious to say for sure. I'm so glad tomorrow is rest day for me!!