It was a trick!!!!

Woke a wee bit earlier than my alarm was set to go off, ok more like 45 minutes before I got up and got ready for my run. Like I said in my precious blog post, I had prepared as best I could for a hot, humid 10 miler. So I got up, had my usual LRS routine + a salt shot lol. Get over it, it's 5 o'clock somewhere;) Jk!!!!! And off I went. So I check outside to see how the weather is and to my surprise it was cool. I was so happy. I thought hell I don't need my frozen bondiband or salt packs. But boy oh boy I was wrong. So by mile 4 I was soaked, head to toe drenched in sweat. I stopped at a local gas station and went potty and got some water, fixed my top that kept coming up during the whole 4 miles. Then ventured out to finish. I was doing well, my pace was at about 8:54 min mile which for a long run is a little fast. I knew I needed to slow down. I pushed through, trying to stay on beat with songs, my head was way to much into my run. Mile 8 I took a time out to really have a heart to heart with myself. Which includes using VERY bad words which I will not say on here because they are very very vulgar. So off I go and I'm telling you I was soaked which then means I am hungry which means I WATER!!! It was hard to keep going. As i am thinking that i have only half mile to go I meet this women who I see run all the time. She's a bit older than I, lets just say she's been running for 46 years!!! We talked cause we also ran into eachother at the half. And you know we both said the same thing. It doesn't matter how long you have ran you will most of the time be in your head. At some point you put these rules on ourselves when we run when there isn't a rule book. Yes I have certain expectations of myself as a runner. But I know that my body can run a half without walking, I can run distances that are hard without walking, but these last couple of runs have pushed me so hard mentally. Persevere!!! That's a meaning that each runner can identify with. It's ok to walk for a minute to just regroup, to breath, to say nasty things to yourself or just pray, I know where I've been, I have seen what I can do, I need to stop being in competition with myself and just enjoy the beauty of running!!!